a wish and a prayer

October 27th. It's Jamesley's 2nd birthday.

I wish Jamesley was here to celebrate with us; We would have candles and his favorite cake. He would hear "I love you" at least a dozen times. I would smooch his sweet caramel cheeks and tell him how precious he is to us. We would give him the biggest bouncy ball we could find because that is his favorite type of toy. But he's not here, and we can't do those things. So we continue to hope in our Lord to make this situation beautiful, whatever beauty looks like to Him.

"Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress AND TO KEEP ONESELF FROM BEING POLLUTED BY THE WORLD." James 1:27

This has been the verse the Lord gave us for our adoption, and I always wanted to leave the last part off. Each time I started to do that, I felt this nagging to go back and add it on, so I did. I have no doubt that the Lord placed the ENTIRE verse on my heart for our adoption because He knew that we would experience pollution during our process. He was trying to prepare us for what was to come.